Hanya aku yang tahu.

Dalam hidup ni,xsemua benda kita boleh cerita kat semua orang. Evenn org yg paling kau syg. My parents, never told them about my prob. Never. I cried alone. I struggle alone. Only friends n lover know about 60% of my story maybe? Bkn xnak cerita, mgkn ada cerita yg ko blh kongsi dgn Ali tp bkn dgn Abu. Mgkn jga ada cerita yg ko blh cerita kat Timah dan Minah tp bkn kat Raju. All this while, aku ketawa, huhahuha sini sana, dlm hati xda sapa yg tahu. Knapa aku jd mcm ni. Knpa aku mcm ni. Knapa aku mcm ni. People always know how to judge you. I will never change for the sake of ur happiness. I always find people that accept me for who I am. Not to change me. I know I am bad. I really know it. I am not a good daughter. I am not a good sister. I am not a good friend and I am not a good lover. I know it better than you. If u keep on judging me, go ahead. I dont mind at all. I have my own strong reason for treating everyone in my life like that. Why I treat you differently. Not like I treat the others. Come ask yourself. What you have done. In my life, I have found so many people didnt like me and I dont care. Just because of my attitude, u try to judge me? :) aku hanya perlu bsabar dan bsabar. 1 hr nanti pasti akan terbukti sapa yg betol2 ikhlas mendampingi aku. Hanya aku yang tahu. Aku memerhati dr setiap penjuru. Setiap ayat dan tutur kata. Aku tahu. I pray to Allah for giving me strength. Aku byk tjwb wpun aku anak keempat dan kedua terakhir. Org lain mgkn xkan pnh phm. Dlm dunia ni, apa yg aku nak, parents aku happy punya anak mcm aku. Dgn sgala dugaan yg kami alami sejak 3tahun lepas, menjadikan aku makin kuat wpun aku tau kudrat bapak dan mak semakin lemah. Tugas aku skrg hanyalah belajar dan belajar dan dpt keja bagus utk bls balik semua pengorbanan yg mereka lakukan. I promise I will. :')

Short update.

Assalamualaikum. cuti dh nak habes. n arini last puasa 6. insyaAllah. so ready utk sediakan list menu makanan yang diingini daripada hasil tgn mak yang tercinta sebelum pulang ke bumi JOHOR! hewhew

Happy!

Alhamdulillah for everything. cant wait for november to come. :)